Did I mention that...

I went to Bataan last Saturday even though it was already declared as a "state of calamity" there?

That, so far, I passed all my subjects? I mean, those profs that were kind enough to show us our grades.

That I want to aim higher this coming and LAST shift?

That I'm really getting tired of telling you guys my love life and my school life?

That sometimes I do think of myself as a loser?

That my seatmate asked me this morning if I trust my boyfriend?

Well anyway, I just wanna tell those points out for God knows why. :p Seriously I don't know why. But, I'll elaborate more of those stuff in my coming "chapters"

I still need that cracked version of Plants vs. Zombies

--Ciao and Keep in love.

8th month has just been recorded

Yes, this is another love story. Bakit ba? Eh, sa blog ko 'to at gusto kong i-bulgar sa mundo ang pagka-inlove ko. :))

Okay okay, taray-ness aside and here's my story...

It's been three weeks since he's had work. And about two weeks prior to that is the time he spent finding a job. So, approximately, I "lost" a boyfriend for about five weeks now.

Thinking it over clearly today and also last night, I kinda got angry at myself because I think I was being too selfish again. Hindi naman sakin nag-rerevolve ang mundo niya, and we have our own lives din naman, so I shouldn't think that, my boyfriend is already leaving me or somewhat.

After today, I realized that, even though we lack time for each other and that I miss him so much, I think that this is still good for the both of us, I think that it's still healthy that you don't see your partner that often.

Why? Well, I don't know.

Naisip ko lang na, ako parin naman ang nasa isip niya, I know that and I'm sure of it. And, mas stronger ang relationship namin now. I realized that I've grown mature over the past few weeks. Kailangan talaga ng sacrifices in every relationship. Okay 'yun.

Nagtampo pa nga ako sa kanya just hours before our 8th monthsary. Pero I chose not to tell it to him. It'd be easier. And safer. Ayokong magaway kami.

After our date today, I realized that something HAS changed. Our relationship. It grew stronger and we're growing and becoming mature. This is an essential part of a relationship.

Keep in love guys :)

I'm really surprised O.o

You see, this is the meter that is shown on the right side of the screen. And, why am I surprised?

Last time I checked, this meter was only about a hundred, and that last time that I checked is like a week or two ago. I've been trying to get people to read my blogs and hopefully comment on them and stuff, and then I go away for a week or two and this is what I find.

I really thank all those people that did come by my blog and took the time to read them. Thank You very much :) I appreciate the time and effort you exerted in reading my "EMO" and "too-much-serious" blogs :P

And also, if this is some kinda spoof only, well, uh, thanks for making my blog look good. HAHA :))

Love lots, Ciao :))

A good start coming to a bad..well, it's not yet the end.

My most favorite subject in the whole wide world was English. Why? Because it's the easiest subject of them all! And no, I'm not bragging, but just to let you know, in my whole life, I always get a high high high grade on an English Class.

But then when second sem of my first year came, my grade went to a decline. Tss. Seems that English wasn't so easy afterall.

Eh kasi naman, ang alam ko lang is the basics, and what they're teaching us now is the things that we would need in thesis writing. And you pity's sake! 2nd year palang ako, I'll do the thesis work when I'm on 4th year, don't you think I won't forget all of what you taught me?

...And who will remember it all?...

Anyway, at first I loved our English professor at the present, pero seems like, MALABO siya LOL.

He gave a really hard assignment as our exams last 2 weeks ago, hindi na daw niya isasabay sa first shifting namin dahil kulang pa ang aming na-discuss. Ngek naman Sir, wala ngang nadagdag sa diniscuss natin, pero exam natin today!? Ba't hindi mo nalang sinabay? O.o

Yes, today, later, we will have our Prelim Exam on English.

Tss. And it ain't that easy at all.

Sucks. Tss.

At least we''ll be able to have breakfast together :*

13th post on August 13

To a lot of people, the number 13 is considered as the unluckiest number of them all. I noticed that in a lot of buildings and establishments, number 13 would wiped out of their system, e.g. elevators, room numbers.

But then, I consider this number special, I consider it as one of the most valued numbers in the system. Why? It's the number which started my whole relationship with a truly remarkable person who surely owns my heart.

13, as you may have noticed is my monthsary date with my beloved. Weird ain't it? Well at least we're out of the ordinary :)) But I really don't care if people consider this as weird and unlucky. Its not really the number that counts.

Anyway, today, August 13, 2009, our relationship had its 7th Monthsary. <3

Although we weren't able to spend the whole day together, I still appreciate it. I would not let the sadness come over me. Even though the time we spent together on this day was limited and only for an hour and on a simple fast food resto (specifically breakfast at MCDO only) I still consider it as special in my own way.

Kahit na, sobrang antok pa ako, I pushed myself to get up and dress up at pumunta na ng MCDO kung saan daw siya naghihintay. Dapat, I wouldn't be able to go, because I was really sleepy, and still tired (I studied Human Muscles' OIA until almost 2AM) but when I sensed that he was getting sad, my mind went to some kind of a jolt and I decided to go there even though I was still tired.

We were able to see each other for exactly only an hour. Because I had to go to school and he has to go somewhere else with his friends. Naiintindihan ko na kailangan niyang sumama sa mga kaibigan niya. Importante yung agenda nila, at kahit gusto na niyang mag-stay with me, I told him to go meet his friends nalang and he should keep his word. Kahit na-sacrifice ang time namin together, OK lang. I still love him anyway :))

After ng limited time of date namin, I went home, dressed up and went to school. Siya parin naiisip ko kahit kabang kaba na ako sa graded recitation that we would be having at BIOSCI Class. Pero OK lang, siya inspiration ko :) At kahit na inasahan kong HINDI magiging magandang araw ito, (dahil sa BIOSCI, PGC at Chem) it still turned out fine. Not the greatest day ever to celebrate your relationship pero yung thought na kahit man sa sandaling oras, itatabi ang mga priorities panandalian para bigyan ng time ang relationship niyo, that made my day :)

And sweet pala :) Kahit may kailangan siyang puntahan at kailangan kong magaral at matulog, still we had that time of the day with each other. Kahit nga naman isang oras lang siya.

This day was spent with only a bit of tme with you
but even though that was the case
it doesn't mean that our love will fade away
on this day of August
I learned the real value of time spent woth you.

Pasukan na...ULIT.

Thanks to the ever growing A(H1N1) virus, our classes was suspended for a total of 8 days, because one of the students that are studying at our building is a confirmed case of this disease.

I feel pity towards the guy or the girl. Of course, kung malalaman mo na ang isang tao ay nagkasakit ng A(H1N1) hindi ba, lalayuan mo siya? Let's face it, pare-pareho tayong tao, and pare-pareho tayong nagiingat. Kaya para satin, hindi iyon "pandidiri", nagiingat lang.

And also, I thought that the confirmed case was even one of my close friends. Pinauwi kasi siya right before they suspended the classes.

And now, the 8 days are finally over, PASUKAN NA ULIT BUKAS NG UMAGA. Before, sobrang naiinis ako dahil suspended ang classes, but now, I don't want to go back to school yet. Ewan ko ba, I'm just really not in the mood. And, our schedule won't make feel in the mood either.

Pero, for the past few days, I learned something very important. I SHOULD LEARN TO RELY ON MYSELF AND NOT TO ANYBODY ELSE. Kasi napansin ko, kapag maggaral ako, and then confusion comes up, ang lagi ko nalang naiisip, "Hahanap nalang ako ng notes ni ____, simplified yun." I depend too much on one of my friends, and I believe that, that won't keep me alive for the remaining years of my college life.

I started my "NEW LIFE" last night, where I read my book and made my own notes because I couldn't understand the gibberish that was in my book. THERE, I'm finally getting THERE. One step at a time. :))

I am glad that you are still here with me.
I'm glad that you're still there to support me.
I'm glad that you'er still there to love me.

Nearing the start of the School Year.

Ewan ko ba, kung matutuwa ako na na-move ang start of classes namin or I'll be pissed kasi wala na akong pera and I need to make my baon my ipon? XD

Anyway, I'm pretty sure that I AM pissed partially because of the baon thing. Seriously, I'm broke. Enough said. Haha! But, I'm also pretty happy about this, because, when classes start, most probable than not, I won't be able to see much of HIM due to conflicting schedules.

Alam ko, part yun ng life, and mas importante talaga studies, pero, wala lang, hindi ko kasi alam ang mangyayari.

Pero kanina, I experienced yung feeling na, pumapasok siya, habang ako, naghihintay ng break time niya.

Okay naman, keri naman, but, mamimiss ko talaga siya. Even just for like 2 hours na naghiwalay kami. Kasi naman, sinanay niya ako. Earlier today, pumunta kami sa kinakainan lagi ng mga kaibigan ko, and dun ko siya namiss, kasi usually, kapag kainan, SIYA katabi ko, tapos nakaakbay pa sakin or naka-hug. Chaka, when crossing the streets and stuff, he's always right beside me para alalayan ako.

ANG SARAP TALAGA MA-INLOVE.

I'm just scared that when school starts for me, I'm really sure na mawawalan din kami ng oras para sa isa't isa, lalo na't I have added responsibilities. Pero, sabi ko sa sarili ko, dapat masanay KAMING DALAWA, since, we can't be kids forever, kahit hindi man natin sinasadya, dadami at dadami at dadagdag ng dadagdag ang responsibilities and priorities natin.

Two people that had commited themselves to the other should also understand the art of UNDERSTANDING.

Seryosoooo...

I really hate pakelamero/a(s).

They think that their opinion is the total "in thing". The hell with freedom of speech, meron din kasi tayong tinatawag na RESPECT.

And no, I am not talking about my parents kasi usually they are the number one pakelamero/a(s) in our lives. I'm talking about some of my friends. And yes, I understand that they're just expressing their opinion, pero, naman, yun nga, RESPECT. Other people has feelings too.

Kainis. Very insensitive.

What do you think of Taylor Swift?

Love Story - Taylor Swift

I absolutely love her.

I'll sing this for you :)

I didn't pick this T.T

Pero, syempre, wala akong magagawa.

One BIG Sigh. *SIGH*

This one is also about my last post. About a DYING Labrador DOG.

My, or should I say, OUR pet dog has breast cancer, and she's a ticking time bomb, she can die any second. I'm not joking nor am I being harsh, I'm just stating the facts. Tanggap ko na parating na talaga ang time niya. Hindi maiiwasan yun, pero like my sisters and I think, it is better that we would care for her more than before. We want to be with her in her last days in our world.

Sounds ridiculous right?

Well if you really do think it's ridiculous then this is not the right blog for you. 'Coz this post is all about those people who think that CARING FOR SICK/DYING PETS IS A WASTE OF TIME.

Anyway, I don't wanna scare anybody away. It's just that, people that think like that, well, I can't blame them kasi, kahit ano nga naman talaga gagawin mo, if it's her/his time to die, wala ka ng magagawa. I beg to differ, if it is really time for them to die, don't you think this is the best time for them to feel how you really love them?

Siguro, iniisip mo, baliw ako, hayop lang naman pinaguusapan eh, pero akala mo taong napakaimportante na yung tinutukoy ko.

Well guess what, there's not much difference between an animal and a human being. We are all creatures of God, kahit hindi nga tayo pantay sa kanila, we were given the task to take care of them, to be stewards of nature.

Hindi naman ako nagagalit sa mga ganung tao eh, yun mga nagsasabing, "'bat mo pa bubuhusan ng oras yan? eh wala din naman mararating" nalulungkot ako sa kanila, kasi, they don't care even a bit. Eh paano kung tao yun? Ganun din ba sasabihin mo? How heartless can a man be?

Chaka, we can't just give her off to an animal shelter. Para mo naring ipinasok ang kamag-anak mo sa asylum.

Think about it, is it really a waste of time to just give it all you've got before that time comes?

Thank you for your support.
Thank you for understanding me.
Thank you for catching me when I was about to fall.

I'm just being helpful and considerate

Can you consider taking care of a DYING DOG a waste of time?
Kahit alam na alam mo ng darating yung time na mamatay din siya dahil sa sakit niya.
Is it really a waste of time na inaalagaan mo parin siya?

Minsan lang talaga...

Napapagod na ako.

Alam ko napapagod ka din.
I don't want to give up,
And I also know that you don't want to give up.

Red Cross Training

For 4 straight days, from 7 am to 5pm, I went to UST to have my First Aid Training.

Earlier today, this officially ended with a BLAST.

The very last practical was the actual situation handling where some of us acted as victims and others still played the role of being a first aider. It wasn't that easy like we imagined, there, we really felt the pressure, and we felt like we were in a real situation. Well, slightly. It's understandable since it was first time. But, it was really a thing to remember.

• I realized that surveying the scene was the MOST important part of the whole process.
• I learned PATIENCE. In a real life situation, there would be a lot of bystanders around, sabi nga nila mag "USI" that would most likely be making the hell out of your misery.
  
• I learned PRIORITY. Lahat ng victims, priority ng lahat ng first aiders. But, one should know the level of priorty of each of the victims. Anong mas matindi, yung, electrecuted o yung na-fracture? You pick.
  
• I learned the REAL IMPORTANCE of all the I have learned during the lecture. We cannot be too careless of things. Hindi dahil nahihirapan na sila ay hindi ka na magiisip, hindi yung biglaan kang mag-treat ng patient without even knowing their case. Para kang pumunta ng gyera ng walang bala ang baril mo.
• I learned that TEAM WORK is next in line in surveying the scene. Kung magisa ka, okay lang, pero more or less, you'll seek help. At kung may kasama ka ngang iba, hindi ba dapat, may team work kayo para marating niyo ang success?
• I learned that SAVING LIVES is a great profession.
  
• Lastly, AYOKO NG MAGSHIFT TO ANY OTHER COURSE. Okay na ako dito. MASAYA na ako dito.

You are the cherry on top of my day.

PS. Mahirap maging VICTIM.

Tiring but Fulfilling

For the past few days, I attended a first aid training course held by the Central Red Cross Youth Council. Nakakapagod siya ng bongga. Kainis, 7am you have to be there, and then, you can escape from that place after almost 12 hours. 7am to 5pm kasi 'yun eh.

First two days, puro lecture lang, pero may onting demo. I learned how to bandage! and fold a bandage. Haha! Want me to boast about it? Magugulat ka! Pero, hindi ko pa siya ganun ka-get ngayon. Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ito ginagawa ko ngayon. Making a blog. Weird ko noh? Hindi ko alam paano ko naman i-prapractice bukas, wala akong mapapagpractisan.

Anyway, bukas, may practicals kami on CPR and RB. Alam mo ba 'yun? Kung hindi ka Red Crosser, malamang, hindi mo alam yun. Basta, about trying to maintain life sa isang individual.

Nakakapagod siya sobra. PERO, nakakatuwa siya, bakit? Eh kasi, isipin mo, you have a CHANCE to save a person if given the chance, PERO sana never ko din magamit yung mga natutunan ko. Gets mo ba?

Chaka, ang sarap kayang ipagmayabang sa buong mundo na, "uy! kaya ko i-bandage yan!" o kaya "alam ko kung paano i-treat yang sugat mo, halika, tulungan kita" o diba? astig pare!

Like I said, TIRING BUT FULFILLING.

I know that you are missing me too much,
I know that I have a lot of ground to cover,
but I also know and hope that you understand me.

New rules, new changes, still the same old LOVE

For the past few days, my love and I have been getting into fights a lot. I wasn't OF COURSE, in favor of it. I can't even remember how it started, or what started all of it. I just don't want this sh*t anymore. It makes me uneasy and it's unhealthy!

I talked to him and he talked to me. We agreed on new rules and/or conditions in our relationship. We agreed that we'd start over but still with the same LOVE. Or maybe, we can modify it a bit and make it even a stronger love and a stronger relationship.

I'd LOVE that. :)

I love it when you hold my hand tightly.
It clearly says, you don't ever want to let go.
I also won't.

First Post

Matagal na akong may blogger. Ewan ko ba kung bakit hindi ko siya ginagamit. Sa halip na gamitin ko na ito na ready na at lahat lahat, I had to sign up pa for different sites para lang magblog ako.

This has been my all time hobby, blogging, pero, ever since I entered the world of college, everything changed. Naging mas insecure pa ako kaysa dati. Oo, insecure ako sa maraming bagay. Madaming naniniwala, madami din ang hindi naniniwala. Pero kasi, insecure ako when it comes to what I write and to what I speak about. Kaya, everytime na may essay essay sa mga exams, ay, hindi ko ipapabasa sa iba, hayaan nalang natin ang Prof. ko na magbasa at maghusga sa mga pinagsusulat ko.

I'm an incoming 2nd year PT student at the University of Santo Tomas. I expected that I would be separated from my friends due to the shuffling of sections. Guess what, ni-reshuffle kami ulit. Ang gulo, nagkahiwahiwalay na ang lahat ng tao, lahat ng magkakaibigan at pati narin ang magka-ibigan. Kahit ako, nahiwalay ako sa mga kaibigan ko. I was hoping pa naman that I would get a chance to have them as my classmates once more.

Education stuff aside, let's get to more, "involved" side of me. This day, I attended a first aid training conducted by the Red Cross Youth Council. Masaya siya, dahil madami kang matututunan. Kahit PT ka man, Engineering o Educ man lang, welcome ka. Hindi porket, medicine inclined siya eh hindi na pwede yung mga hindi nag-take ng Medicine.

7am palang, I'm at UST na, and until 5pm I was there, and then I had my physical examination. I'm dead tired. I want to sleep, but tendency is, I'll wake up sometime in midnight.

I'll rest nalang.

I have been missing you all day, all week, all the time.
I hope that our LOVE would last a lifetime,
enough for me to fill my empty heart until I die.