The Need For Comfort

Have you ever felt the need for comfort? I have, and I need them the most at present.

I got into a huge fight with my big sister a few weeks ago, I think a month has passed since that day, and still, we haven't talked, got along, or even apologized to each other.

The huge fight was due to a conversation or a message over YM!. I was talking to my boyfriend one night about my sisters, and I left the window open unintentionally. Well maybe I did :|. But it was not left there for her to see or for her to read. I was going to sleep and I planned to leave the computer open so that when I wake up in the morning, I could easily open the documents that I needed. I believe that I had a test later that day and I wasn't able to finish studying.

Well, the thing is, the things that I've said in that particular conversation is not very pleasing. My sister and I don't really get along, and what I told my boyfriend about my sister is basically bad things about her. The things that I hate the most about her.

The next story is, well, she read it. And of course, she got mad. We haven't talked ever since.

My parents are telling me to apologize.

I didn't want to.

Why?

I don't know, maybe I have a lot of pride? What's the point of apologizing? What did I do wrong?

Was telling my boyfriend those things that I've said a wrong thing? My father told me at the first night of my fight with my sister, "Some things are not meant to be told to other people"

Yes, we're not legal. My parents doesn't know that I have a boyfriend, only my siblings know about him. That's why my parents doesn't understand me fully, because they thought that I was telling those things to some random person that I know. They don't understand that I told those things to my boyfriend whom I always talk to about the things that happen in my life, the things that bother me, most especially my problems.

I seek comfort from everybody that I know, but even with the shower of comfort and love from everybody, I'm still hurting, and still longing for that happiness.